Back to blogging

My last post was in 2009. And now its already 2012! 3yrs! 3yrs have past just like that. I'm shocked at how time flies. Now and then, I think many things have changed. I shall start to blog again and write some interesting and entertaining stuffs.

Its never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, start whenever you want, you can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that stop you. I hope you feel things that you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life that you’re proud of and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.

Curious case of Benjamin Buttons

Meaningful words that enrich lives. As people trouble over the issues of the materialistic world, one the centralises on profits, gains, and money, I seek comfort to my soul. I'm not living a life I'm proud of. I'm gathering the strength to start all over again. To meet people that change my perspective, to advance beyond the nutshell I have cast for myself. To move forward.

The truth about Chinese New Year

CNY is the joyous occassion of get together. The lively music and the crowded atmosphere creates the appealing factor for a gathering. Afterall, how often relatives get to meet each other and catch up? Little children excited about their hong baos, and you get to eat the new year goodies available only once a year.

I have been through this festive season as many times as I have till this age. CNY has lost its attractive appeal to me. It's just another day. Just another average day.

Get into the mood of new year! It deserves much better than this. Hope my friends can light up the mood of new year at my place. New Year is incomplete without er shi yi dian. My tea leaves are overflowing in my cupboard. My red wine still stands. Help me solve the problem by clearing them.

Let us make merry and enjoy the goodness of life!

The best therapy to offer for one who is in the danger of depression, is to be given a talk cock therapy. Talking helps, somehow, I cannot understand as well. The patient is allowed to talk about anything, be it illogical, irrational and gibberish nonsense. It may not make sense to anyone, but the patient feels good about it. Here, the patient is most relaxed as he is not judged for the things he have said.

Subtracting the stress factor of being scrutinised for his words, a talk cock therapy is practised and tested to work.

Another round of talk cock therapy? Yes, please!

And I wonder how have you been?

I guess I have understood what's it all about.

Procrastination has done its damage.

Do I deserve a second chance to overcome my deepest fears and doubts?

My job requires me to read. This should be a pleasurable experience. But its my job. It's my work. Reading is fun no longer applies. Activities are only fun when you have the luxury to do as and when you feel like it. At the end of the day, I'm expected to deliver something out of it. To conduct booktalking, to write book reviews within a given period of time. I cannot afford to read at my own pace, I cannot mince the words and appreciate the delivery of their fantastic stories.

There is a clear distinction between interest and work. I never like to mingle the two together. It can never be. Some people can. My deepest and sincere reverence to them. When interest become work, it is no longer the same. I cannot understand the devotion and passion people have for their jobs. It seems work is all they have and all to life. I never will.

At this point of time, the dream manifests itself again and tempts me once more. I shall have a piece of land, in a quaint nice peaceful outskirts of chengdu, to lead a hard to resist idyllic life. I shall plant my crops and tea and be self-sufficient.

At times, I will invite my friends over for some tea. We can drink tea for the whole day, and the society forgets our existence. Then, when I feel like it, I shall leave my hut and travel to see the four great mountains of sichuan.

After that, I will travel further to Lu Shan and see if I can discover the true form of Lu Shan. For a poet once said that Lu Shan grandness is surreal and it mystifies itself by concealing its true nature. Perhaps I might gain some kind of enlightening of my own and write another poem which no one will hear of once i compose it. Alas, I wish the society forgets about me and I too forget about the human society.

Veronika decides to die

Paulo Coelho does it again, after "The Alchemist" that has left a lasting impression, Coelho's work with deep philosophical meaning has left me inspired and rejuvenated. Veronika, a beautiful and young women, who has everything that one could not ask for more, a good career, good parents, youth, has decided to put an end to life after finding life to be mundane and repetitive.

Veronika wants to be a pianist, but her loving mom wants her to grow up to do something else, lawyer... something that can earn more, so that she can have a comfortable life. But Veronika cannot refuse this, for her mother love her so, and she has to acede, with the moral obligation that she would hurt her mother if she refuse to. This is a inner conflict of what everyone else expects you to do and what you really want to do.

It is a sad tale, at the start the build-up to Veronika's decision to die, but things took a change when her attempt failed. Landed in a asylum, she started to love life again but only because her remaining life span is left with a couple of days.

Its the only book after Romance of the three kingdom that I couldn't stop. I just had to finish it once i started. Although Tuesaday with Morrie, Kite Runner are excellent books as well, I have to rank this above the rest.