Things come and go. Memories becomes faint. I'm begining to forget...... forgetting.... sometimes, it is good to forget. Some things should be forgotton. Some should stay. I just feel that things are changing. My life is changed forever. The choice of taking china studies as a minor paid off. Perhaps, this is fate. I'm happy. Y? Happy that i have found it. Found what? There's no need for me to say it, since i noe it, so y mention it?

其实你不懂我的心

你说我像云捉摸不定
其实你不懂我的心
你说我像梦忽远又忽近
其实你不懂我的心
你说我像谜总是看不清
其实我永不在乎掩藏真心

怕自己不能负担对你的深情
所以不敢靠你太近

你说我像云捉摸不定
其实你不懂我的心
你说我像梦忽远又忽近
其实你不懂我的心

你说我像谜总是看不清
其实我永不在乎掩藏真心
怕自己不能负担对你的深情
所以不敢靠你太近
你说要远行暗地里伤心
不让你看到哭泣的眼睛

沧海一声笑,
滔滔两岸潮,
浮沉随浪记今朝.
苍天笑,
纷纷世上潮,
谁负谁胜出天知晓.
江山笑,烟雨摇,
涛浪淘尽红尘俗事知多少.
清风笑,竟惹寂寥,
豪情还剩了一襟晚照.
苍生笑,不再寂寥,
豪情仍在痴痴笑笑

And so i am, living a life of a lone wanderer. Free and boundless, no restrictions and no limitations. I experience mixed emotions and thoughts; at times, I enjoy the peace and quiet of my own personal space I have all to myself. At times, i feel empty and sad. These are the ups and downs of life. A man should look ahead and not allow himself to be buried within his own past. The past is over. The future is not for us to see. What is important is now. The present is all that is crucial.

So i shall talk bout today. I got back my 5000 word chinese term paper done all by myself. It was great, though i got a B+, considering that i done it over a week, with such short period of time, a B+ i would say is a excellent grade that you can expect. Life science still sucks as before. I have thought of what i would like to do for my future. This time, it is something for certain, not just something i said out of impulse. After getting my life science degree, i would apply for NIE and be a teacher. The bond is 3 years, enough time for me to earn the cash for my dream to come true. I would fly to the States to pursue a post-graduate studies in chinese history to get my PHD. I would like to come back to join NUS and further my research and teaching in this field. Its a tough path, one that will take a long time and lots of perserverance to carry on, but I am willing to embark on this road that i have chosen. By the time i come back, i will a 30 year old bachelor, probably.

可知云呼？千变万化，无一形可定。无形，为所欲，当今，事事亦如此。时事常变，情之本质。凡事都不可如意，岂可怨恨之？不如逍遥自由，可高声歌“笑傲江湖”，可饮酒作乐，可不闻实情！红尘俗事知多少？人生本该应当如此！人生短暂，应尽欢之。我愿走偏天涯海角，环游四海，仙凡卷归，超越规范，谁欲同吾？

And so we just stood there and smiled at each other. No words are exchanged. It felt like as if words aren't important anymore. No words can describe everthing in this world. I don't have to say anything. The few seconds of silence, the short moment of just you and me; it felt like eternity, like time just feezes there. Deep down, in my heart, i know..... and so we just kept our silence.....But we know........