Wednesday, April 18, 2007

On teaching

It is a surprise that i got my teaching post. I heard negative news that selection is strict. On the other hand, i heard that selection is slack. I do not know which one is true. There was a little anxiety and uncertainty while i waited for the response. I think i did not do well for the interview. Now, i'm relieved that i got the 1.5 year teaching contract before MOE would offer me the 3yr bond teaching. All is good and well. No worries for now.
Life?!?!?
What is an ideal way to live? If u ask me this question, i do not know how to answer u. How would i noe? But i do enjoy drinking tea from the tea set i bought recently. Using a wooden spoon-like utensil, i transfer the tea leaves into the tea pot. There is two tea pot, one to mix the tea leaves with added hot water. The other will be used to contain the hot tea. It is necessary to transfer the tea from one pot to another, otherwise the remnants of the tea leaves continue to affect the quality of the tea. As time goes, the tea becomes more bitter if u do not transfer the tea and leave the leaves behind.

At first, the tea i brewed had a very plain taste, because i was impatient and i didn't add enough tea leaves. I didn't wait long enough for the taste and essence of the tea leaves to be diffused into the water. On my 2nd try, the tea is too bitter because i was greedy and added too much leaves and gave it too much time to settle. The tea was beyond good balance. I felt like spitting the tea as it was too unbearable for my sense of taste. The 3rd time, the tea was good. Suddenly, every other thing is no longer matters to me. All i noe was that i was drinking tea and enjoying myself. Then when i finish my tea, i was back to my revision for my upcoming exams.

The rich is not good. The poor and undernourished is not good either. What is good then? The balance between the two extremes! But what is this mid-point in life? I do not know. All i noe is i want to brew some good tea and enjoy my tea. This is life.

Monday, April 09, 2007

Don't take words so seriously. Don't distinguish things. This is what i learn from Zhuangzi. Just have a good laugh about what i'm about to say next.

Wandering freely; Distinguishing chio and not chio.

If we see what our sight have delight in seeing, we will grant the object to be beautiful and pleasurable to our sense of sight. Who is a chio bu and who is not a chio bu? Shall we be concern about that? My friend say that he wants a chio bu to be his stead. Does it make sense to say that statement? What kind of chio bu does he meant? Do not distinguish chio and not chio. It cannot be done. Have you not found a same girl to be chio and not chio even though she has not change much physically? I do. Sometimes, she seems chio and sometimes she doesn't. If I cannot be sure about whether a person is chio or not, then how do i know whether she is chio or not? I say it is unneccessary to look for a chio bu stead consciously, for your stead will be chio to you no matter what other thinks. If you have stead, your stead will be chio. So y say i want to find a chio bu stead. If you do not find your stead chio, then you do not delight in seeing your stead. Then what kind of a bf are u?

You may think that i'm speaking nonsense here but can you be sure that i'm speaking nonsense?