There are moments in school which i enjoy. Students have left. Activity diminished to almost nothingness. The evening is always enjoyable, the time which nothing would rush me to leave. I take my time and stroll around to appreciate the tranquility and moment of peace. The school can be peaceful indeed. I can hear the gush of water into the pond. Although it is artificial, I could care less that it is so. I close my eyes and listen with my heart. My heart felt peace. I look at the greens and although it can be no greater than the botanical gardens, i couldn't care less. It is beautiful in it own way. Within the school, this artificial and cold builiding, I should be glad that there is still that trace of nature lurking somewhere. I am a lover of Dao, yet i have not attain the dao. They say that those who do will find peace even in busy cities. They are unaffected by the environment and still be at ease in their heart. When the students make noise, my heart is disturbed and can't find the peace. Only when there is quietness, that i can feel tranquility. Alas, this is better than those who do not know where to find peace. I have a friend who is extremely upset about the fact that he needs to re-format his computer. The lost of important files is so painful to him. Yet, i re-format my computer with little concern at all. Losing the pictures means nothing to me. To be free, yes....... that's what it is all about.

A fair maiden

Where can i still find a fair maiden? A coy, demure and gentle lady who reads my heart and mind. She will be a fine companion, and beyond that,a life partner whom we shall stay side by side together, even if the earth and sky is to perish, we still stand strong and persist. Our hearts shall interwine and we know each other's intention without speaking. Words shall mean nothing for the two of us. Let us appreciate life by abandoning the woes of life. We shall spent our time in the quiet and serene mountains, watch the full moon and recite our poems. In the day, we shall be in the bamboo grove. Not bringing any chairs to spoil the natural landscape, we will sit on any rocks available, and just watch and listen. To see te bamboo sway among the wind, is to appreciate the grace and delicate nature of the world. Yet no one will sit down and watch for even a second.

1800-hotline

It's time for me to dial the chat hotline again. Talking therapy is the way for me to feel good at the end of the day. Talkng does the wonder, just talking will do the trick. Perhaps that's y students can't help but to talk in class. the chat hotline is not the real 1800 hotline, but a joke i thought of once i was talking to my god-sister. I have the habit of calling friends to chit-chat for hours. I can do it so often and spent so much time on it. It makes me feel good after a couple of laughs and experiences shared. I just made a remark that it feels like calling the 1800 counselling hotline to just talk about anything and make urself feel good. Who shall i call tonite?

Hannah Montana!!!!!!!!


I don't expect a lot of people to know who she is. Probably, no one my age would have any idea who she is. Hannah montana is the name of the comedy drama series that is on-going on disney channel. The name of the show takes after the main character, who is playing a dual role. She is a average next door girl in school but her secret identity is hannah montana, a teen pop singer who would send the crowd screaming and going crazy over her presence! The show is very witty and funny, which would sent me laughing till the house knows that i'm around. Sometimes, it can be really meaningful. One of the appeals of the show is the really nice songs sang by hannah montana. I sincerely think that she has the makings of a real teen pop sensation. Her voice is really good and she can really sing. She rocks and for her age, she's simply fabulous. Her songs, though structured in a way that appeals to teen, has mesmorised me with the sensitve and delicate emotinal expression and also very inspirational. Oh well, hack care those who think her songs are lame. I will still love her songs no matter what the others think. I read that her album sold very well in the states and her songs were on the billboard. When i'm feeling down because i screw things up, i will listen to this song for motivation.

Nobody's perfect

Everybody makes mistakes...
Everybody has those days...1,2,3,4!

(x2)Everybody makes mistakes,Everybody has those days.
Everybody know's what, what I'm talking 'bout,
Everybody gets that way.

Sometimes I'm in a jam,
I gotta make a plan,
It might be crazy,
I do it anyway.
No way to know for sure,
I figure out a cure,
I'm patching up the holes,
But then it overflows.
If I'm not doin' too well... (clap clap, clap)Won't be so hard on myself...

Nobody's perfect!I gotta work it!
Again and again til I get it right.
Nobody's perfect!
You live and you learn it!
And if I mess it up sometimes,Nobody's perfect...

Sometimes I work a scheme,
But then it flips on me.
Doesn't turn out how I planned,
Get stuck in quick-sand.
No problem, can be solved..Once I get involved!
I try to be delicate,Then crash right into it!
But my intentions are good (yeah yeah yeah!)
Sometimes just mis-understood...

Nobody's perfect!I gotta work it!
Again and again til I get it right.
Nobody's perfect!You live and you learn it!
And if I mess it up sometimes,
Nobody's perfect!I gotta work it!
I know in time I'll find the way,
Nobody's perfect...

Sometimes I fix things up,And they fall apart again,(Nobody's perfect...)
I know I mix things up,But I always get it right in the end.. (You know I do!)

Talking:Next time you feel like,
It's just one of those days,When you just can't seem to win.
If things don't go the way that you guys planned,Figure something else out!
Don't stay down!Come on everybody... Try again!...

(x2)Everybody makes mistakes,Everybody has those days.
Everybody know's what, what I'm talking 'bout,Everybody gets that way.

Nobody's perfect!I gotta work it!
Again and again til I get it right.
Nobody's perfect!You live and you learn it!
And if I mess it up sometimes,
Nobody's perfect!I gotta work it!
I know in time I'll find the way,
Nobody's perfect,I gotta work it,
'Cos everybody makes mistakes..

Nobody's perfect.Nobody's! Perfect!No No!
NOBODY'S PERFECT!...

Its a long weekend for teachers. National Day itself is a public holiday. For students and teachers, it's a practise that there will be no school after the National Day. I really need that break to think about things. After trying to teach for a week, I have to admit that the expectations of a teacher is not as simple as what my dad would always say. He does business and he said its a dog eat dog world out there. OF course, i know what its like in business. I read romance of the three kingdom. Its all about plots, schemes, politics, networking. Doing business is like fighting a war. He believes that kids are much easier to handle. He has been persuading me to stay in the line, with this reason as his main concern. Students are naive and adorable. Ha ha ha, i laugh at this fantasy. It is half-true. I have foreseen the problem before i start teaching. My tuition kid gives me the problems, but its only one kid. The key problem here is to do with my personality. I'm a carefree daoist advocate. Maintaining discipline and consistency is something of an opposite pole to my nature. I have always give in to my tuition kid, even if he does not do his assignments or disrupt my lesson. I never fixed the problem, but just flow along the river and be patient with him. It's more of like getting use to it, rather than eliminating the negative behaviour going on during lesson. We became more like friends instead as time pass and he would do his stuffs out of friendship more than the student-teacher respect. I do not see myself capable of extending this relationship to an entire class of 40 students in school for now. How do u make friends with people who don't listen to u; who purposely go against what u said?

Packaging your lessons in an interesting manner to captivate the students is a another huge challenge. I have always been a boring down to earth person, the best I can do is to fantasize myself as an ancient Chinese man and behave like one crazy man, that's all! Speak about creativity, that's just telling me to not be myself. There is the conflict between putting myself back to my comfort zone and to step out of it bravely to handle such challenges. How to know whether I can really succeed? Only time tells. My heart says to me to stop the nonsense and leave, but my mind says that u never know until u hang on tight and give it a shot. Which one is correct?