Hmmm...... wonder what r some of the stuffs i can do after work to occupy myself. I don't really like the idea of watching tv to sleep. Some kind of excercise should be good. Its not tat easy to find sports khaki nowadays. Trekking, cycling, swimming, tennis? It's tricky. This are mostly day sports. Is there something known as nite sports? Also quite boring to do sports alone loh.........

My my, that thought has never crossed my mind. I mean what?!?! I becoming a father and have a child that will bear some kind of resemblance to me. Oh man, that turns me off. I must say when you ask me to make a choice I prefer kittens to babies. I don't know what to do in front of the toddlers that people will find cute. Well, at least I know how to play with a kitten, a nice pat on its head, it comes to you and sticks to you, rubbing its body against your legs. I wouldn't know what to do with a human infant. I'm at lost.

I can't make that kind of funny faces. Just cant't, and don't want to. I'm glad that my sis agrees with me that babies are not as fun as kittens. At least to this point of time, that's wat i think.

And so I come into contact with another person who numbs herself with being busy. I'm not too convinced that this is the right way of life. Not that she whines about loneliness has to do with that but I decided to give it a little thought and ponder about the kind of life most ideal. I don't think its a overstatement to say that people keep themselves busy so that they don't feel bored. And then that boredom could have a lot to do with loneliness though they are two different things.

Tried and tested, I realise something lacking in a lifestyle like this. I recollect the moments in NUS, that I decided to make full use of my time by getting myself into one busy man. 6 modules in one sem, 2 tuition assignments to go along with this delicious menu of no time to myself. Y? Because I got nothing to do with the time I have for myself! It's a good way to drain yourself so that you stop thinking bout loneliness. It cures the symptoms but not the disease. At the end of the day, you will be damned tired so that you won't even have time for any negative thoughts. But looking back, there is some sense of lost and disorientation. What was that all for? I asked myself. I don't think I was satisfied at anything at the end of the day. I wasn't particularly exhilarated or anything. I don't think I feel the rewards from it. One sem felt like half a sem, that's just how it feels. I wonder is that how life should be?

So I have learnt that life is not about keeping yourself occupied for the sake of keeping yourself occupied. And I have realised that work is not the solution to happiness too. Toiling all day long is not the way of life. Work life and personal life balance is crucial. Those who commit too much time to work seems to me not an ideal kind of life. Those who enjoy too much and not committed to work is not having a right life style too. Its about finding the right balance.

Hang on to your seat and have a good grip with your steering wheel. You will need a good dose of courage to stimulate the speed devil in you. Go-kart is one hell of an experience. Don't be fooled by the run-down look of the miniature kart. It may seem a little kiddish from its looks but it sure can go fast. A truly thrilling experience, you have a feel of how it will be like when you are in for the speed. As you pump up the acceleration, the engine roars, the kart vibrates and everything around you starts to go pass you faster. The speed comes with the control; it's a test of skills and guts, to go fast at the corners and yet maintaing control. As i attempt to mimic the moves in the shows and movies of drifting and driving without breaking, I realise it seems easy but hard to do in reality. My kart started spinning out of control when I negotiate a sharp bend with full speed. Nevertheless I enjoyed the experience of speeding, it's something worth to try again in the future.

I have long wanted to write this post. In it, I shall pour out all the contents and left nothing behind. So often we whine about, make a big fuss about it, and we just can't seem to get it right. No no, we are not desperate, there's a clear distinction between despair and desire.

Everytime I read Sumiko's rantings, I can't help to feel that we could be good friends, maybe she can even be my next god-sister. Oh yes, Sumiko writes on the Strait Times column. Both of us have something in common, that we make a big fuss out of loneliness and our self-consciousness and anxiety escalates to such high levels that we are almost narcissistic. It is self-comforting to some extent that there's someone out there who is like me, but it's not something one can smile and be proud about.

Back to loneliness, I wonder why is it so hard for me to tell myself to get on with my life. Sumiko is in her 30s, she has every reason to feel left out when her friends are, settled with their own family. Not that I'm the only one single among my friends but then again, it just doesn't make it feel any better. Life's kind of boring, really quite dull. A companion makes the journey much more enjoyable, all my friends agree with the notion except for a few, but finding that companion is a big question.

Please guys, how can I buy that? That you are fine with being single! Pretentious cunning people you are! You self-decieving, this doesn't fool me. It always happen. You say you not interested and that next minute you got attached. Crap shit!

Stop saying that when the moment is right, the right girl will come. So what, chio bus will fall from the sky and end up on my lap?!?!

I went for a SDU organised event with a guy friend, for a paint ball and go-kart event. The main point is not that I'm joining a SDU event. Now what i'm gonna say next, is that I didn't expect the crowd to be made up of mainly people in their 30s. Hmmmm..... misfits!!!!!!! But nope that's not the main point either. How do I find the activity? My most sincere answer: Good, but I sure hope I don't end up going SDU when I'm in my 30s. I have got 5 more years, counting down now............

Love it! I can't control myself when it comes to high school musical. Its something I will go wild over. Once, me and my friend started playing the song and started dancing on the road like we are in some kind of musical. We were out of control for that short moment.

The movie is showing in Oct and I won't miss it. Sharpay, u r simply lovely!

blogskins.com is a bad place to find blog skin. My current blog skin stinks. It does not induce my appetite for blogging. Its so uninviting.

Walt disney channel tween sensation hannah montanah alias miley cyrus is on the news again. She released a new album, breaking away from the teenage genre and trying to get everyone not to see her as the little girl she is. First racy photos, then breaking away from her iconic disney symbol of good and nice down-to-earth girl . Bad news. Look at britney spear's "not a girl, not yet a women". Screwed man, those who's eager to show themselves to be mature tend to be going towards the downhill of their career as well. Good luck miley, the media will be gloating over your misadventures!

The audience roared, the emotions were high. Pride is at stake here, as the physical and the mental strength of the players are tested. To play in front of a crowd of 30,000; the pressure is unbearable.

The striker attempts a shot from a difficult angle. It looks like its going in but the fine reflexes of the keeper manage to put a stop to it. Quality save, superb keeping. But wait! what's going on? I think I just saw the goalkeeper scores an own goal, with the ball into his hands, back into his own net. What a terrible, horrendous mistake! The supporters are not very happy with what they are seeing. Horrible, horrible, It's just not his day! No 1. Javier cannot afford to make such a mistake in a big game like this. Let's hope we can see something better from him the next time he plays. Players like him falter in the big games. Fine lad, I think he just need more experience and exposure.