Interview crisis

I can be really nervous when it comes to speaking in front strangers, especially a group of them. To some extent, public speaking is as bad as going for a interview. The mean and awful panal of interviewers scare the hell out of me. In my younger days, my most dreadful exams are the oral exams. I went for my MOE teaching post interview. On top of this frigthening encounter, i was late for the interview, that really screw things up. The interviewers look friendly, but i just couldn't make myself feel comfortable. I was quite at one's wits with the questions they ask, i just try to at least give them an answer. I don't noe whether its satisfying answer for them but i made the same mistake of going too much into chinese culture. When i think back, i think i had given them an answer which is going to really affect their opinion of chossing me to be a biology teacher. The last question was so crucial, but i was too caught up in my own world of thoughts. Asked wat job i would do if i'm not chosen as teacher, i answered that i want to be an assitant curator to work in the museum, which is really my sincere answer. Jia lat, i also asked them whether i can teach chinese and biology or not. Sometimes, it doesn't pay to be honest. I bet that they will start thinking that this crazy life science guy ain't interested in biology, or to say life science at all, since he's not pursuing a career in his field. What makes him committed into teaching biology and chemistry, he is more suitable to teach chinese. I realise they were hinting that with the questions they ask. But faced with telling the truth or telling a lie (what they would want to hear so that i can get the job), i had chosen the former. Actually that is the real case, frankly speaking, i would like to teach chinese more. But i also mention that Confucian classic of Yi Jing, the book of change adovacates adapting to the environment, capitalise on what u already have and apply it to what u r in. I did support myself by saying that a complete person needs the knowledge of science, and the morality to use science correctly, which we learn from confucian values. Dear dear, wat to do now, except to hope that they are convinced that i'm balanced and is adaptable.